Cant focus o_O

Its augustttttt omgggggg its so odd i dont know
time seems to pass so quickly each year and it's
a bit scary honestly.......

this blog entry is a depressing one kinda, like i wont get on any details ofc, just the main thingies soso dont read this one if u just wanna see silly thingz

i dont know, ive been quite overwhelmed by everyhting lately, school is hell, we have been going through struggling finacially hell a lot more than usual lately, my thougts keep telling me that. i shoudlnt really even try to draw since i suck at it and it makes me sad, i dont have energy to do anything anymore like not even coding bro and i love coding and frawing
its like if all i have energy for now is playing a game and MAYBE watching a youtube video,,,, it feels quite miserable to be honest lolz. its a bit odd since it doesnt only go w things tharequire effort, bc its also w easy as fuck to do shit

its ironic, because the only time i dont feel horribly miserable is when im at school either focused or talking w ppl
and even then, sometimes i feel like i dont really act as ME. and i dont wknow HWY. its weirdddddddddddddddd

anyways this one is a bit of a short one bbbbb so yeag, ty for reading my sad rant if u somehow and for
whatever reason read it xP

Soooo tired!

WE ARE PAST HALF OF THE YEAR?!?!? that's crazy!!!
well, i've been gone for a bit so i felt like it's
an appropiate moment to actually write a little smth
on this hellhole of a place ^_^

soo sososo ive been mainly alright i think,,, apart of some irl stuff that makes me want to crawl into a crack of my walls and die there like a malnourished bug. thats not really important tho so the things i wanted to wrtie here about today aree that i am firstly, back into the sims, that horrible game? yeah. im glad thTa i dont buy the expansion shit bc its hella expensive and a really good example of corporate greed and capitalism in its maximum glory n all... besides the people make way bette content for the game and most dint even charge shit so like. ea u should die in a Hole actually,,,,,

also i am literally watchign madoka magica as i write this and im on ep 5 and its already so horrible like. THEYRE JUST 14 YEAR OLDS. WHY IS IT ALWAYS LITTLE GIRLS LIKE LOOK AT MY DAUUGHETR LAIN.

English, drawing and alien stage

another day for another blog entry!
some days ago, i think last week? i got the results of an english
test, an actual official one to know my english level, and it
turns out i have a C1 level!!!! which is kinda funny knowing
how shitty i type and reason in english sometimes :3
either way, im happy to know that!! it kinda lets me be at peace knowing that i do have the abilities to
communicate well in english ^_^

school has me quite dead tbh, like i like it and all, but its just sosososo tiring!!! im currently in
a course right, but i need to finish around 39 chapters before the 8th bc if i dont i wont get the
thing TT_TT. Still, its very cool to even have the chance to do these things, and it just fuels more
and more the need to be better........ though idk if it completly a good thing o_o it's stressfu but
its okay, at least it gives me smth to do!!!

either way, i think it may be time to talk about my thoughts a little
last night i was drawing right, i tried to draw the mizi heart spilling art in my style, yet it rlly
made me aware of how much i suck at drawing faces that arent facing forwards and thats frustrating1!! like
i feel like i should know how to that at the very least? i know i dont rlly take frawing seriously, ive
never ever done a study on anatomy or anything, so it checks out, yet i realllly wanna draw mizi in all
her glory!! like shes so amazing!!!! shes genuinely so cool, i really like her character, and may be one
my favorites!!! actually, its very hard to even tier things in ALNST, songs, characters.... its the first
time this has happened actually, and its quite odd! i've always been able to pick the characters i like most out of everyone, yet this is so well done, that even with their most present and predominant flaws, its fairly easy to analyze them and realize their actual reasonings and conducts if that makes sense??

im going to run errands so ill stop for now :3 if you somehow read through that emss, thankz

first time,,,,

hiii :3 first blog entry ever!! how cool is that :D! i've spent sooo
long focusing on school n stuff that i Barely even have time to
even work on this silly weirf fucking place... so yeah anyway
i wanna use this place to just type and
vomit my thoughts out on vs studio... the silly ones though!! the
depressed ones go in another little thing! o_o
so yeah, the first entry will be, very embarrasingly, about what ive been into recently...

FIRST OFF. THE MAIN FUCKING WORM IN MY BRAIN RN... MAN ALIEN STAGE IS FUCKING AWFUL.
youd ask, why amely! its such a good animated series on youtube that literally anyone should watch? and yeah, but nothing before has ever made me feel so insane? like actually, i've managed to somehow pile about 700 pins on pinterest in what? a month????? like is that not crazy???

and im so sorry but i've got to complain about illiterate tiktok fans.. i know there are a lot out there in many different fandoms but it never fails to piss me off whenevr someone missinterprets the easiest shit ever like, dude its written all over your face! how did you miss the point?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? ALSO THE MIZITILL FUCKING SHIPPERS CAN DIE IN A HOLE IDC

anwyays afetr that small crash out ill talk a bit about madoka magica... its so good but ive onyl had the time to eatch a single ep... but i do really love how it is such an attention grabber rifht at the start! like wdym she needs to save the world??? and what do u mean she bevomes a magical girl!! i rlly love ti ^_^

so yea. tahts it for today.. thank u for readig if u somehow managed to do ta¿hat x_x