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Longer entry makes up
for lost time

Good god it's been a while.

life has been hectic, im on my last year of highschool
now and running to find an internship, while also juggling
weird but not unknown feelings and the uncertainity that i can only guess comes with being 18

But oh well, what can we do? life won't stop for our feelings and that's okay i think.,.,
Even then, i do want to share what has been going on for the past few months, since even though i know that no one will really read these, it is maybe of the nicest ways i have to lay things down, and completely off my mind!!!! So this may (will) be a Longer entry

as i mentioned i am, in fact, 18 now! which is crazy to think once you realize that i started this neocities just a little over a month before i turned 17... I wish i could be like!!! IM GONNA UPDATE THIS MORE OFTEN HELL YEAG!!! but realistically ya nah,,, i probably wnot... im writting this on holiday actually, since when i come from school i end up falling asleep at 7 pm, 8pm if im lucky dude!!!!!1!

Console!

ive also picked up a new like. hobby? i think "interest" is more fitting tbh. i dug out our old xbox360, which had become useless in our house since my parents made the weird financial decision to buy the ps5, skipped a whole genuinely of consoles there huh.
so i may or may not have opened it, cleaned it as far as my t18 screwdriver got me, and solved some issues that got us to even abandon the console in the first place! for a short backstory, my little brother when he was maybe 4 or 5, dropped hot milk on it! i was maybe 8 when mom bought us the console, so with that and parents that didn't grow up in the height of the technology revolution or whatev, the poor console got fluids, insane amounts of dust, and im willing to believe that bug in there too! and we arent like gross, we are quite clean, but having a console without any maintenance can only take it so far
So, after opening it and cleaning it with the supplies i was gifted at last years' internship, i turned it on and it worked!!! now... the second problem, we had no discs left. we never bought digital games, and most our games if not all, were burnt! and all those were thrown in the trash due to either not working, or by the simple fact that we had a newgen console.
but! luckily, a few months before i got the console working, a cool person developed a non-persistent jailbreak for the sbos, and it only required an usb! so, as i got excited and bought a usb, i got it and following a tutorial by the amazing sir mario on youtube, it worked! it felt like a frankestein sort of situation xP.
Fast forward a few months, and i've got set up on the console 49 games! with two that i still need to convert but im lazy. next is the w11 i promise

smth smth cool guy smth smth

now. a second topic i really want to discuss that's been one of the biggest additions to my life in the months i've been gone. is that i've got a boyfriend! he's very nice, and the fucker got me into mcr which. has me in a chokehold rn. he doesn't really know this site's link, but she knows of it's existence, soo i wouldn't be surprised if she came across this and read it for the love of the game. hi ur wonderful <3

digital? improvements

it's somethign im ashamed to say and share on the internet, and even though i don't remember if at the time of the previous entry i had done it, i've deleted all my ai related accounts, which werent many, but still it's something that's... really put into perspective hoe predatory they are on one's mind. and even as ashamed as i am of my use of them in the past, im happy that i've finally been able to properly put those shitty ass websites into the trash and not contribute to the increasingly devastating global damages they've done!! sometimes it's a little discouraring to see how many people i know rely on AI so, so much, and it's really weirdddd to see how their use has actually made them less prone to using Their Brain. it's horrible. i hope the "ai bubble" thing is real and the bubble bursts sooon..

Molly

and finally, something i really need to lay down.. as its very obvious, there are two cats in the welcome page, one is yurio and the other is molly! but, a few months ago, molly went away as he usually did, but this time he didn't come back. i don't know what to assume, but i think its been 10 months or so since he's been gone, and i can't help but think the worse as much as i want to believe that he found a house where his food is not kibble but tuna and roasted chicken every day, at every meal. wherever he is, i hope he's happy, well fat and as fat and lovely as he was with us. i miss you my boy, i'll miss you forever and our hearts ache every day that passes without your sweet meows or your loud yelling every time we had dinner.

English, drawing and alien stage

another day for another blog entry!
some days ago, i think last week? i got the results of an english
test, an actual official one to know my english level, and it
turns out i have a C1 level!!!! which is kinda funny knowing
how shitty i type and reason in english sometimes :3
either way, im happy to know that!! it kinda lets me be at peace knowing that i do have the abilities to
communicate well in english ^_^

school has me quite dead tbh, like i like it and all, but its just sosososo tiring!!! im currently in
a course right, but i need to finish around 39 chapters before the 8th bc if i dont i wont get the
thing TT_TT. Still, its very cool to even have the chance to do these things, and it just fuels more
and more the need to be better........ though idk if it completly a good thing o_o it's stressfu but
its okay, at least it gives me smth to do!!!

either way, i think it may be time to talk about my thoughts a little
last night i was drawing right, i tried to draw the mizi heart spilling art in my style, yet it rlly
made me aware of how much i suck at drawing faces that arent facing forwards and thats frustrating1!! like
i feel like i should know how to that at the very least? i know i dont rlly take frawing seriously, ive
never ever done a study on anatomy or anything, so it checks out, yet i realllly wanna draw mizi in all
her glory!! like shes so amazing!!!! shes genuinely so cool, i really like her character, and may be one
my favorites!!! actually, its very hard to even tier things in ALNST, songs, characters.... its the first
time this has happened actually, and its quite odd! i've always been able to pick the characters i like most out of everyone, yet this is so well done, that even with their most present and predominant flaws, its fairly easy to analyze them and realize their actual reasonings and conducts if that makes sense??

im going to run errands so ill stop for now :3 if you somehow read through that emss, thankz

Longer entry makes up
for lost time

Console!

smth smth cool guy smth smth

digital? improvements

Molly

Cant focus o_O

Soooo tired!

English, drawing and alien stage

first time,,,,

Longer entry makes up for lost time

Console!

smth smth cool guy smth smth

digital? improvements

Molly

Cant focus o_O

Soooo tired!

English, drawing and alien stage

first time,,,,

Longer entry makes up
for lost time